~ Loud Whispers ~

& Action…!

And we begin the play!

You smile & laugh

And say what you say!

I pretend not to hear any way

I pretend to believe

That you don’t intend to deceive!

That the play

Is not merely words to say

But a life complete

Thrown at the feet!

& we compete

To complete

The pretense

No defense

But building a silent fence

So that I won’t be wounded again

So that the pain

Would not remain

Would not be so plain!

We continue the play…

Losing words to say

Wrapped in silence

In many way\s!!

Action…!

Let it all start

We have certainly lost the beating

Of the heart!

Thurs: 11-11-1430\30-10-2009

12:29 am

Thank you to all my lovely friends by Nisro (birthday 14 Oct) featuring Preen

You will know…

how to love her more

How to go beyond the proverbial door

How to cross the next thousand miles

How to keep her smiles

Oh..you will know

How to breathe her to the deep

How to hold her in your thoughts to love and keep

How to dream of her when a sleep

And imagine her in every waking moment sitting near

As if she is here…

Having her cup of coffee

While you dream of tasting her toffee

You will know

How to show

The beating heart of you

How to tell her it is true

That life without her

Is sooo blue

That you can never know

That life could be enchanting

Yet tormenting so!!

 

Wed: 2-11-1430\21-10-2009

1:05 am

mood: crappy

 ~It's a Mistake!~

It’s a mistake

To think

That trust

Cannot shake

That love can

Never  be

simply words

Sent to (me)

It’s a mistake

To think

That the one

Who says he loves you

Can not hurt you so!

The one who claimed

Would bear his soul

In defense of yours

Could recklessly cause

You to have

Thousand fears

And more

Because he can not

duly

Keep at bay

Emotions

That led him

Stray!

How could you be

So safe to know

That your anchor

Had mislead you so

That the one whom you have believed

Can be your rock

Your friend in need

Can, in fact, cause your heart to bleed!

 Could you really swear

And cross your heart

That you have been right

From the start?

That in your words

You have been so true!?

If so…?

Why my heart aches

And blue!

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Mon:17-4-1430\13-april 2009

mood: gloomy

Oh dear!
My mind is not clear
My heart is filled with fear...
And life seems to drag me to the rear!

Oh dear!

What could I say

When pain has filled me in every way

And you…!

Silent as always(s)

Add piles of dry dust

To my already wounded soul

Can’t you get it at all?

Or do you intentionally

Dig for the fall

Till we all

Live suspended

Facing the wall!

An You…

You..

Care not what could

Or could not be

Pretend to be clever to understand the mystery

So totally deluded with your own self imagery!

Oh dear!

Autumn is here

The leaves are falling astray

You…

Have nothing to say

But thousands ways

To hurt always!

Tues: 26-9-1430\15-9-2009 (1:45am)

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Every day I change colors

But you don’t really see those hues

Hiding within me!

You don’t see the layers

And you are so deaf to my own silent prayers!

We are such poor players…

It seems

And how I hope that all

Is but a dream!

Today I am a mystery

Dark

Unreachable by thee!

You can only have glimpses

Of what to be..

Or not to be!

I could be yours to stay

Or not at all

In any way!

You have to reach deep down

Beyond the smile

Or the frown

And the gilded existence

Of the mile

That sets us apart

And pull at our hearts!!

I’m darker than your darkest dreams

You..

Can not comprehend, it seems!

That there is me

And there is me!!

And there is a vast difference

Between what the “me”

And the forced existence of “she”!!

Sat:22-9-1430\ 12-9-2009 (7:17 am)

She walks on the threshold of two worlds
Two colors
None matched by the other
Embrace this mystery of the mixed hues
watch the shifting breath
And all the small clues
Soon you’d be lost in her gray skies
Forever searching her eyes
And waiting breathlessly
For her smiles.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
posted 03-06-2002 06:22 PM

mood: crushed

Nudging the pain!

I have to play the game

I have to nudge the pain

Give it another name

And sing an old refrain!!

I have to pretend

That I have a world

Without an end

When tomorrow

I can’t see

The edges

Of mortality!

I have to bear..

The anguish

Of not being able to share

A dance

A lullaby

Small smiles

And laughs

To come by!

The pain of hiding my words away

As if they are not worthy

To stay

To say

To rub themselves

Softly on your eyes.

Gliding cheerfully

Creating smiles.!
All I have is lies

And pity remembrances

Of a dream never really lived

But a delusion

That made

This monstrous rift!

And set us

Adrift!

Sat: 8-8-1430\ 29-8-2009 (5am)

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mood: depressed

My colors are turning grey..!

you may say 

what you may 

and I am left always 

shocked at the remnants of a day..!

My colors

are turning grey!!

I have not reckoned 

that this bleakness would be my way!

I have lost words to say

all sighs seem to shatter

and I have to pay

the price of living

in this muted way!

I gather my strength to pray

and you...

I'm sure

would lose 

one day!

I know you can't comprehend

that there is a way to mend

the rift,

the pain,

and what remain

but bleakness 

is all that u give 

expecting that weakness

is all what I have!

Meekness 

weakness

bleakness

are never the same

Be sure to memorize the pitiful suitable name!!

It trickles and ends

and soon

you'd have nothing 

to mend

and everything to lose

in every way..

Be careful 

of what you say...

Words

have never befriended you

in any way!!

You see...

words can tell

what hides in the inner most cell

and so...

they give you away

expose you 

to the light of the day

and you would eventually 

be seen

not beautiful...

not strong

but totally delusional 

and wrong

and while you frown and say:

“come what may!”

your mask would be fast falling

 giving you away...!!

You would not be left to enjoy

the day

or the foggy undefined way

You'd tremble

all of what's in you 

would crumble

and fall

...

only then 

perhaps you would comprehend it all!!

The fall!!

That I told you would come one day

as long as you insist that this is the way...

But ...

you said: “come what may!”

and the fall 

came eventually 

one day!!

Wed. :5-8-1430\26-8-2009 (6:49 am)

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His mornings

Are never the same

Till she calls his name!

Taunting him to stand tall

And not to easily fall

But gather around

His mental sound

And

Not totter

Not flutter

Never to utter

All that inner stutter!!

Have your coffee ready

With the morning mail

Perhaps the day

Would not leave him Stray

But proves to be worthy of the pray

And the “say”!

Tues: 18-4-1430\14-4-2009(9:32am)

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